Dreams are worth protecting.
To be precise, dreams are worth revisiting and identifying. As adults, we go about our daily life doing the things we hold as important or things society puts value on. We have to do what has to be done, but that is not the issue at hand.
Along this road, which can be rocky and full of things we don’t understand, we never make the time to reflect or think about what it is we are doing. For me recently, I was forced to be still and stay home and relax.
It was quite tough for me. It started with a flu which kind of came and went for about two weeks, then it was followed by me waking up on a Monday morning with a stiff neck and blocked shoulders. I could not move my neck or my upper body, and I was in extreme pain.
The result was me being stuck at home and unable to work while enduring excruciating pain. Every treatment I received only seemed to make matters worse. It felt like the chiropractor I was seeing every two to three days was only making the pain worse. The anti-inflammatory and pain medication only served to knock me out.
All of this time at home had another side effect—I suddenly had to reflect, think, ponder.
I found myself jumping from one thought to another, and I decided to journal again. Write it all down. I started thinking of when I was a young girl, free from all the worries and challenges of being an adult and realised that I had so many dreams back then. Inspiring dreams of things I could do and achieve in my life.
I was creative and open to trying new things and felt like I could do anything I set out to do and was not focussed at all on the outcome of attempting to do the things I dreamt about. Back then, I never felt lost or stuck. I didn’t feel like I needed direction to live my life the way I truly desired. I just went for the things I wanted by following my creative pursuits. I would share my dreams and reach out for help as needed (as sometimes I did need permission from my parents or their support in some manner).
Point is I never felt stuck in those days. Life moved swiftly and I walked around with a spring in my step. I was filled with an eager anticipation for everything life had to offer.
What am I getting at:
I sat down and read my notes which I had poured out in my journal during the days of my recovery from my flu and stiff neck. It is amazing how much can pour out of you if you just let it. Anyways, I noticed the difference between those days as a little girl and a time not too long ago in my life, when things were the total opposite of my bold girl phase.
What were my observations:
As a little girl, I spent little or no time at all worrying about the outcome of anything I tried to do. I was never afraid to the extent that I just did not try or simply watched time pass by only hoping that things would fall into place. I relied on the gift and inner strength I had in me, without over-thinking things. I trusted fully in my dreams and it drove me to feel positively about myself.
Living with that internal freedom made it easy to love myself unconditionally. Being judged by others was never a thing that ever crossed my mind, and so I was never hindered in just doing whatever was required to get things done.
Looking back to my disempowered and stuck phase, I now see what I had stopped doing or being. Somewhere along the road, I had lost a lot of what made me a free as a butterfly. I had stopped being who I was meant to be and was not really showing up as my authentic self.
How did I end up stuck?
I was busy thinking I had to be perfect before I did anything. I was worried about how I would be received. I feared being judged and not being enough. I feared not succeeding in anything I attempted.
That is literally how we find ourselves stuck and at crossroads with no direction. I had forgotten my dreams, or better, I had stopped letting my dreams be my guiding torch.
The journey to becoming an empowered version of me and being able to live life the way I do now required getting clarity and revisiting those years in which I lived life driven by my internal strength and not letting any self-created limitations hold me back. That is the key to growing and not just going through life.
Our dreams have more importance than we realise and all of us have them.
They can serve as an internal driver and a great source of inspiration. It is all about being aware of this amazing tool we can tap into at anytime we want. We just need to know how and if we can’t do it alone, we should reach out.
It is also okay to acknowledge that one lost touch with them without falling into a pool of guilt and shame. We can’t change the past but we have our now and thus stand a better chance of going into a future based on our terms. It is possible to get unstuck no matter how forlorn one might feel or be. I know this because I was there and I found my way out of it by tapping into the power of my dreams. Reconnecting with my childhood dreams taught me it was not enough to just live life.
I now live life daily with happiness and will do so till I live no more. I do this as a fulfilled person. I started living life daily as an empowered person and this is what I truly want everyone who feels stuck to experience and start doing.
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